New Zealand musical sensation Lorde turns 20 today, and last night before the clock turned to midnight she posted a lengthy message on Facebook, talking about the past year and her upcoming album.
Like any teenager about to become a 20 year old, Lorde reflected on the last year and about how her life has changed over the last few years. From growing up in the spotlight, and how her music has changed along the way. “If I’m being real with myself,” she wrote, “in some ways I stopped feeling like a teenager a while ago. Sometime in the last year or so, part of me crossed over. For one thing, I made a very deliberate choice to withdraw for a little while from a public life. I haven’t had my hair or makeup done in a year, the free handbags dried up LONG ago, and the paparazzi at the airport are almost always for someone else.” She talks about how “I turned inwards to my friends, my family, towards this moment, so I could learn more about who I was, and so I could let this new project show itself to me.” And then things turned to talk of how her life has changed.
“And oh my god,” she wrote, “it was a colossal year! One for the ages. I maxed out every single emotion I have in the best possible way, the colours still aching behind my eyes like this weird blissful hangover. My heart broke. I moved out of home and into the city and I made new friends and started to realize that no-one is just good or bad, that everyone is both. I started to discover in a profound, scary, blood-aching way who I was when I was alone, what I did when I did things only for myself. I was reckless and graceless and terrifying and tender. I threw sprawling parties and sat in restaurants until the early hours, learning what it’s like to be an adult, even talking like one sometimes, until I caught myself. All I wanted to do was dance. I whispered into ears and let my eyes blaze on high and for the first time I felt this intimate, empire-sized inner power.” Of course it was this change that led her to her new album.
“And then I wrote a record about it,” she continued, “all of it, so much more than what I’ve written down here, and I’m in new york getting it done. And tomorrow, I’m not a kid any more, and more and more I’m realizing that the weirdness of those Mylar balloons is going to be okay. Writing Pure Heroine was my way of enshrining our teenage glory, putting it up in lights forever so that part of me never dies, and this record – well, this one is about what comes next. I want nothing more than to spill my guts RIGHT NOW about the whole thing – I want you to see the album cover, pore over the lyrics (the best I’ve written in my life), touch the merch, experience the live show. I can hardly stop myself from typing out the name. I just need to keep working a while longer to make it as good as it can be. You’ll have to hold on. The big day is not tomorrow, or even next month realistically, but soon. I know you understand.”
Lorde’s fans are obviously highly anxious now to hear this new album, but it looks like they will have to wait a little longer. Probably until next year. It does sounds like the now 20-year-old has grown not only in age but musical ability as well. We look forward to hearing the final results when they are ready.
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